4.3.2020/AGENDA> “needled with misery, laughing the stitches loose”

TO DO TODAY:
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HYDRATING TO GET RID OF THIS HEADACHE AND RESTING. TRYING TO WALK AROUND INSIDE MY APARTMENT TO GET A MINIMUM OF EXERCISE TO STAY SANE.
I slept the past 18 hours or something like it. Without being able to walk outside my schedule is fucked and I am trying not to totally waste my days, that is my main focus. Saw an article on FB (which I am on too much) that said stop trying to be productive during quarantine. But that is what makes me feel like I am not a total waste, so I have to keep it up a little. As one should. But my health was shitty before this outbreak and now is a good time to try to juice up and lose some weight as I am in charge of all my meals. But mostly this is going to happen by necessity and starvation protocols rather than any newfound energy. So I need to stay smart and vigilant. These days were are at the behest of the free market, which simply does not work. Heh. Supply and demand is the law of the land, and the only thing that truly motivates anyone, as every good capitalists knows, is the threat of starvation and death. We are not actually human, we are not actually strong, our lives have no actual value, only coercion and action from chill fear and threat. But we can hope. And in these dire circumstances of stripped away delusions and individual campfires of truth, we find what visions of a real world we might have for our futures are precious. And fragile. And we tinker and paste together model villages for ourselves to one day hopefully dock the fool ships of automatic cruise-time plague years of meaninglessness in some harbor of sweet life. Of comfort and leisure, which we do not take for granted. You have running water? You have food and cares covered for today? Then you are wealthy.
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TAROT OF THE DAY: SEVEN OF CUPS
Aquarian Tarot: 7 of cups. Creative manifestation card. | Tarot ...
MEANING: THE SEEKER HAS STRONG, ACTIVE IMAGINATION AND MANY DESIRES, BUT LACKS THE TENACITY TO TRANSLATE IDEAS INTO REALITY. LIMITED ATTAINMENT.
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WRITING: ‘THE SKEIN’
MY NOVEL, FIRST IN CYBERPUNK
SERIES ‘QUO VADIS, SAILOR?’
WRITING RESEARCH FOCUS :
CHARACTER: Crystal Paige Bridgewater
MEDIA ARCHETYPE: Kristen Bell – CHARACTER DETAIL – She is a student of Architecture
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STUDYING: ARCHITECTURE – Architecture for Beginners by Louis Hellman
Working on making up an exercise a creative teacher may give to graduate architecture students for Crystal to participate in
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WATCHING MR ROBOT – SEASON ONE – EPISODE 5 –
– 3xpl0its –

MR ROBOT EPISODE REVIEW – coming soon
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If I get anything done today I’ll be satisfied. I’m feeling very off and not gonna be productive till I feel better. “Go fuck yourself with your atom bomb. I don’t feel good don’t bother me. I won’t write my poem till I’m in my right mind.” – Allen Ginsberg
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April 3
Waxing Gibbous
Illumination: 72%

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