I Am Going to Enjoy Watching You Die

Trump is talking about pardons for Jan. 6th people, so the idea that these were antifa, or it was false flag is out, until it’s back in, but I am wondering if I commit violence to further Trump’s political aims am I in any sense auditioning for a position in his administration / can I potentially be put in charge of a camp / harem type situation and if I put in effort and single myself out with performance, will this boost my chances or am I merely a pawn and disposible for Trump’s personal aims and he takes no actual interest in me as is apparent by his utter disrespect for the lives and safety of americans who currently don’t support him am I overthinking this or should i just go with my urge to kill due to the everyday desperation i